Life is Beautiful

One south Korean guy was beheaded in Iraq last week. I am not sure what to think of it..it's just a big shock. a sad one. we havent evolved..like, do we actually learn from our past at all? From our 2000yrs history, i wonder there was actually a time when there was no war..

I was reading it on bbc world website and then there was this article about an mega-rich couple's wedding of which the cost was nearly 55 million pounds.. Not sort of the article Id like to read after learning what's happening in Iraq..or when u know of thousands and thousands people struggling for their day-to-day survival..



we all need to take care of each other first..for the basic food/shelter/clothing and for human dignity.. before anything. and suppose we do need the shift of our consciousness. a collective consciousness..

No one comes to you by accident.
There is no such thing as coincidence.
Nothing occurs at random.
Life is not a product of chance.
Events, like people, are drawn to you, by you,
for your own purposes.

I was really annoyed during the rehearsal today. Not that I have worked with thousands of directors..however, I find Jacky, among a few directors I worked with, quite a hard one to work with. Well, that's just my personal opinion, of course. She's got a samll rehearsal studio and then there is this pillar in the middle of it..so when we are rehearsing, we have to be careful not to hit the pillar, not to be on each other's way and stuff.. now, we do a run and all of sudden, she will get very angry and yell at us or me that Im not doing my 100%! Im like, can't u see this is a very small space??? arghh..well, that's just an example. anyway, I cant seem to handle her way of working..i mean, I dont think I would wanna work with her again...

I dont like people yelling/screaming at me. (well, who would?) when I asked Jacky for taking a couple of hours out on Sunday rehearsal, she went nuts at me. Literally she was screaming and yelling at me that it was all scheduled and that, even asking itself was so unprofessional blah blah. I was looking right at her the whole time, letting her spilling out whatever she thought she needed to say at that moment. The thing was that I was offered to be a dancer-model for The Place Professional class brochure and they were paying me 50pounds for 2hour-work. So I thought Id ask..I mean, I had less than 20 pounds in my UK bank account and thought it'd at least give me some money to live thru the next week. (sounds very desperate, doesnt it..haha) thats why I asked..I said, if it's such a big problem then I won't do it.. but thought, there's no harm to ask..so I did..and at the end, I was allowed to do it.. ( after a few phone calls, Jacky said that she's still Unhappy about it but will let me do it..) she'll try working with others for the first couple of hours without me. anyway, the way she exploded on that day really changed my views about her. From the beginning, I had this feeling..very hard to describe.. not quite fully relaxed vibe I get from her..it's nothing about her..think it's something in me that reacts to something she has..and it was not fully positive. maybe that's what it was. My instint telling me that her personality will clash with mine..or that my personality won't like some part of hers. Feelings. they are so honest, arent they..


Enough of that..




You see beauty where you desire to see it.
You see ugliness where you are afraid to see beauty.


I only had 2 students in my class this morning! Ive been warned that it would take a while to build up a constant student numbers, so when no one was there 10 min before the class time, I was like..OK..this is what they meant..:-) well, I had two students so I taught the class. Having only 2 didnt make teaching itself any less enjoyable. I still liked teaching and was grateful that they were enjoying the class. Should do some more publicity for next week..I had 9 students last week and was a great fun. hopefully it'll get better!

I rang Matt, but it seems his phone's playing up, cuz i cant get thru at all. So wanted to talk to him..alright, maybeeeee that I need to work on my 'wanting-ness'---wanting to talk, wanting to be heard... but............I miss him. :-(

Spend a few moments each day embracing your experience of me.
Do this now, when you do not have to, when life circumstances do not seem to require you to. Now, when it seems that you do not even have time to. Now, when you are not feeling alone. SO that when you are 'alone', you will know that you are not.
Cultivate the habit of joining me in Divine Connection once each day. Once you've made that connection, you'll never want to lose it, for it will bring you the greatest joy you ever had.
:-)


it was so Hot yesterday in London..was around 30 degree I think..and the fact this is only the beginning of it makes me wonder how hot it's gonna get and how I'll survive with the london underground which don't have any airconditioning facilities. someone told me it's like travelling in a microwave...went to the heathrow airport cuz Matt was coming from Brazil..gave him a big surprise..haha :-) love it.

I got to read one of my dad's essays on the net last night. it was about his philosophy about educating kids/ how to guide them when they are growing. He said that his philosophy was very much influenced by Deepak chopra's book of which I cant remember the name..the main thing the book says is that 'parents should encourage their kids to find their own talents, rather than telling them how to survive in this world by being number one in tests/examz, or getting into high-class schools/universities. They should guide them to find their children's own natural talents and encourage them to develop it. Also, it says anout letting their children know that their parents will even financially support them if needed... Make sure to provide endless love and supportive environment in which Children can develop their full potential..

I remember my dad once told me that he would support me as much as he could, for as long as he could..the only condition was that I do what I really want to do and that whatever I do, I do my best..gosh, I couldn't believe how proud i was to have my dad, well, my mum as well... felt their love more than ever and missed them so much I wanted to cry...

Im trying to be financially independent here in london..but I know I can ask them to help me if I need...it seems that it'd be better to be financially independent even if I have to do some random waitressing jobs (which are not the love of my life..)than asking parents for help...but I realize they would want me to ask them for help if I need to..what they want is that I do what I love to do in my life, that I do whatever it takes to fully develop my talents.. and be happy..:-)

Thanks dad.
Thanks mum.
Love you always!

it's already June, 6th..
feel like Im getting carried away in London's fast-paced lifestyle.

didnt write much for the past 2-3wks..guess I wasnt really inspired, then.
which means...that I'd like to get INSPIRED again!