Thursday, May 20, 2004
it was a gorgeous day today..just a perfect day with blue sky..reminds me of NZ..
I decided to teach Adv/Prof. contemporary class at this dance centre from next week. I will give them a free trial class next week thou..hopefully it will work out well..
lotsa things to say..found one simple truth about life..that I am a perfect being as I am..just like everyone else is...there is no reason for me to be feeling small before anyone...I mean..Im talking about when you like someone, u feel so small before the person..well, I did..but now I know that I dont need to. a simple truth that can change one's whole experience....it's amazing.. anyway its 2am and i can hardly keep my eyes open..alright..better go to bed..ciao.
I decided to teach Adv/Prof. contemporary class at this dance centre from next week. I will give them a free trial class next week thou..hopefully it will work out well..
lotsa things to say..found one simple truth about life..that I am a perfect being as I am..just like everyone else is...there is no reason for me to be feeling small before anyone...I mean..Im talking about when you like someone, u feel so small before the person..well, I did..but now I know that I dont need to. a simple truth that can change one's whole experience....it's amazing.. anyway its 2am and i can hardly keep my eyes open..alright..better go to bed..ciao.
Saturday, May 15, 2004
I met Koli on-line the other night..was so happy to see him (webcam) and talk to him again..what a wonderful friend he is..then, Jeroen rang me last night and so did Atlanta! It was again nice to hear from Jeroen as he seemed to be doing well and happy.
but the big news last night was....that Atlanta is coming to London! cant believe she'll be here soon!!! cant wait! will do my best to help her settle down here as I was helped alot by many people. it'll be my time to pass on 'the love'!
am reading Friendship with GOD and it is just amazing. so inspiring..so perfect.
You are not- first and foremost I want to tell you that you are not- your past. You are not your yesterdays. You are not what you did yesterday, what you said yesterday, what you thought yesterday...what you are invited to do is live in the moment. Create your Self anew in the present moment...
this allows you to separate your Self from your former ideas about you- a remarkable percentage of which are foundationed in other people's ideas about you.
Do not seek to forget your past, seek to change your future.
The worst thing you could do is forget your past. Forget your past and you forget all that it has to show you, all that it gave you as its gift.
It is the purpose of your soul to announce and to declare, to be and to express, to experience and to fulfill Who you really are...
There are two five-word magic questions..these questions, asked at the right moment, can propel you forward in your own evolution faster than you might ever imagine. The questions are;
Is This Who I Am?
What would Love do now?
With your decision to ask and answer those questions at every juncture, you will move from student to teacher of the New Gospel..
No life is pointless! and I tell you that no life is hopeless.
Fear and guilt are the only enemies of man...Fear and guilt are yous only enemies..
If you let go of fear, fear lets go of you..if you release guilt, guilt will release you.
'how do we do that? how do we let go of fear and guilt?'
By deciding to. As Harry Palmer says; Only a decision is required to change one's mind...All it takes is a decision deep in the heart and soul and mind; this is not Who I Am.
Now Im about to read where it talks about relationships and its great love-enders; neediness, expectation and jealousy.
yay I cant wait~!
but the big news last night was....that Atlanta is coming to London! cant believe she'll be here soon!!! cant wait! will do my best to help her settle down here as I was helped alot by many people. it'll be my time to pass on 'the love'!
am reading Friendship with GOD and it is just amazing. so inspiring..so perfect.
You are not- first and foremost I want to tell you that you are not- your past. You are not your yesterdays. You are not what you did yesterday, what you said yesterday, what you thought yesterday...what you are invited to do is live in the moment. Create your Self anew in the present moment...
this allows you to separate your Self from your former ideas about you- a remarkable percentage of which are foundationed in other people's ideas about you.
Do not seek to forget your past, seek to change your future.
The worst thing you could do is forget your past. Forget your past and you forget all that it has to show you, all that it gave you as its gift.
It is the purpose of your soul to announce and to declare, to be and to express, to experience and to fulfill Who you really are...
There are two five-word magic questions..these questions, asked at the right moment, can propel you forward in your own evolution faster than you might ever imagine. The questions are;
Is This Who I Am?
What would Love do now?
With your decision to ask and answer those questions at every juncture, you will move from student to teacher of the New Gospel..
No life is pointless! and I tell you that no life is hopeless.
Fear and guilt are the only enemies of man...Fear and guilt are yous only enemies..
If you let go of fear, fear lets go of you..if you release guilt, guilt will release you.
'how do we do that? how do we let go of fear and guilt?'
By deciding to. As Harry Palmer says; Only a decision is required to change one's mind...All it takes is a decision deep in the heart and soul and mind; this is not Who I Am.
Now Im about to read where it talks about relationships and its great love-enders; neediness, expectation and jealousy.
yay I cant wait~!
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
feeling very 'funny' at the moment..very mixed feelings...it's confusing..
I went to Heathrow airport with Matt this morning..to see him off and to give him the present I meant to give him last night..he was with Laura when I met him yesterday and I could sense that she was feeling very unsettled..which made me uncomfortable somehow..wasnt sure why she was feeling like that but chances were that because I was there..? quite a stressful situation it was. Felt like I had to be careful what to talk..or how to talk with Matt.. I could imagine how she might be feeling thou...made me think... why does it hurt in the way it hurts when you like or love someone...?? what is it about jealousy and insecurities we have about ourselves?? why do we create unnecessary-imagined stories about each other and feel hurt and sorry for ourselves? what is the belief we tend to have that stops us from accepting that each of us has our own share of things to deal with..whatever it might be..and that it doesnt necessarily mean that one doesn't care abour the other any less just becuase s/he is dealing with someone else..
human relationships..what an amazing topic. it's hard..but WHY? there must be some underlying misleading beliefs that most of us have..which makes our relationships with each other 'hard' or 'difficult'... hmmm, very interesting.. I come to think of it..hehe. :-)
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been surfing the net and visited my old school website and found out who joined where and who got a contract with which companies etc. was really glad and happy for them..but the 'pang' I felt in my stomach! all of sudden, i thought,,, shit, what am I doing here????? while others seem to be doing things so easily..getting contracts just like that.. it was a very dangerous moment I realized..so easy to lose yourself by simply looking at 'the shiny cover'...
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really wanna talk..wanna call my parents and friends...
I wonder how Matt's finding the book I got him...hoping that he'd like it and enjoy the experience it could give.
I went to Heathrow airport with Matt this morning..to see him off and to give him the present I meant to give him last night..he was with Laura when I met him yesterday and I could sense that she was feeling very unsettled..which made me uncomfortable somehow..wasnt sure why she was feeling like that but chances were that because I was there..? quite a stressful situation it was. Felt like I had to be careful what to talk..or how to talk with Matt.. I could imagine how she might be feeling thou...made me think... why does it hurt in the way it hurts when you like or love someone...?? what is it about jealousy and insecurities we have about ourselves?? why do we create unnecessary-imagined stories about each other and feel hurt and sorry for ourselves? what is the belief we tend to have that stops us from accepting that each of us has our own share of things to deal with..whatever it might be..and that it doesnt necessarily mean that one doesn't care abour the other any less just becuase s/he is dealing with someone else..
human relationships..what an amazing topic. it's hard..but WHY? there must be some underlying misleading beliefs that most of us have..which makes our relationships with each other 'hard' or 'difficult'... hmmm, very interesting.. I come to think of it..hehe. :-)
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been surfing the net and visited my old school website and found out who joined where and who got a contract with which companies etc. was really glad and happy for them..but the 'pang' I felt in my stomach! all of sudden, i thought,,, shit, what am I doing here????? while others seem to be doing things so easily..getting contracts just like that.. it was a very dangerous moment I realized..so easy to lose yourself by simply looking at 'the shiny cover'...
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really wanna talk..wanna call my parents and friends...
I wonder how Matt's finding the book I got him...hoping that he'd like it and enjoy the experience it could give.
Saturday, May 08, 2004
it's already 8th of May..time goes fast, huh..
Many interesting things happened..but today I just wanna quote something from the book I bought for a boy I care alot. :-)
There are so many little exerpts Id like to keep with me all the time..
and here they are..in random order..
...Love is the ultimate reality. It is the only. The all. The feeling of love is your experience of God....In highest truth, love is all there is, all there was, and all there ever will be. When you move into the absolute, you move into love...
..So go ahead now. Ask me anything. Anything. I will contrive to bring you the answer. The whole universe will I use to do this. SO be on the lookout. This book is far from My only tool. You may ask a question, then put this book down. But watch. Listen. The words to the next song you hear. The information in the next article you read. The story line of the next movie you watch. The chance utterance of the next person you meet. Or the whisper of the next river, the next ocean, the next breeze that caresses your ear-all these devices are Mine; all these avenues are open to Me. I will speak to you if you will listen. I will come to you if you will invite Me. I will show you then that I have always been there. All ways.
..what you resist persists, and what you look at disappears..
You cannot resist something to which you grant no reality. The act of resisting a thing is that act of granting it life. When you resist an energy, you place it there. The more you resist, the more you make it real- whatever it is you are resisting.....What you open your eyes and look at disappears. That is, it ceases to hold its illusory form.
if you look at something- truly look at it- you will see right through it, and right through any illusion it holds for you, leaving nothing but ultimate reality in your sight. In the face of ultimate reality your puny illusion has no power. It cannot long hold you in its weakening grip. you see the truth of it, and the truth sets you free..
If you both agree at a conscious level that the purpose of your relationship is to create an opportunity, not an obligation- an opportunity for growth, for full self expression, for lifting your lives to their highest potential, for healing every false thought or small idea you ever had about you, and for ultimate reunion with God through the communion of you two souls.....the relationship has begun on a very good note. It's gotten off on the right foot. That's a very good beginning.
-"Still it's no guarantee of success."
If you want guarantees in life, then you dont want life. You want rehearsals for a script that's already been written. Life by its nature cannot have guarantees, or its whole purpose is thwarted.
"I love you, you know that?"
I know you do. And I love you.
Do not feel abandoned. I am always with you. If you have questions- day to day questions- as I know you do even now, and will continue to - know that you can call on Me to answer them. You do not need the form of this book.
This is not the only way I speak to you. Listen to Me in the truth of your soul. Listen to Me in the feelings of your heart. Listen to Me in the quiet of you mind.
Here Me, everywhere. Whenever you have a question, simply know that I have answered it already. Then open your eyes to your world. My response could be in an article already published. In the sermon already written and about to be delivered. In the movie now being made. In the song just yesterday composed. In the words about to be said by a loved one. In the heart of a new friend about to be made.
My truth is in the whisper of the wind, the babble of the brook, the crack of the thunder, the tap of the rain. It is the feel of the earth, the fragrance of the lily, the warmth of the sun, the pull of the moon.
My truth- and your surest help in time of need- is as awesome as the night sky, and as simply, incontrovertibly, trustful as a baby's gurgle.
It is as loud as a pounding heartbeat- and as quiet as a breath taken in unity with Me.
I will not leave you, I cannot leave you, for you are My creation and My product, My daughter and My son, My purpose and My...Self.
Call on Me, therefore, wherever and whenever you are separate from the peace that I am.
I will be there.
with Truth.
and Light.
and Love.
Many interesting things happened..but today I just wanna quote something from the book I bought for a boy I care alot. :-)
There are so many little exerpts Id like to keep with me all the time..
and here they are..in random order..
...Love is the ultimate reality. It is the only. The all. The feeling of love is your experience of God....In highest truth, love is all there is, all there was, and all there ever will be. When you move into the absolute, you move into love...
..So go ahead now. Ask me anything. Anything. I will contrive to bring you the answer. The whole universe will I use to do this. SO be on the lookout. This book is far from My only tool. You may ask a question, then put this book down. But watch. Listen. The words to the next song you hear. The information in the next article you read. The story line of the next movie you watch. The chance utterance of the next person you meet. Or the whisper of the next river, the next ocean, the next breeze that caresses your ear-all these devices are Mine; all these avenues are open to Me. I will speak to you if you will listen. I will come to you if you will invite Me. I will show you then that I have always been there. All ways.
..what you resist persists, and what you look at disappears..
You cannot resist something to which you grant no reality. The act of resisting a thing is that act of granting it life. When you resist an energy, you place it there. The more you resist, the more you make it real- whatever it is you are resisting.....What you open your eyes and look at disappears. That is, it ceases to hold its illusory form.
if you look at something- truly look at it- you will see right through it, and right through any illusion it holds for you, leaving nothing but ultimate reality in your sight. In the face of ultimate reality your puny illusion has no power. It cannot long hold you in its weakening grip. you see the truth of it, and the truth sets you free..
If you both agree at a conscious level that the purpose of your relationship is to create an opportunity, not an obligation- an opportunity for growth, for full self expression, for lifting your lives to their highest potential, for healing every false thought or small idea you ever had about you, and for ultimate reunion with God through the communion of you two souls.....the relationship has begun on a very good note. It's gotten off on the right foot. That's a very good beginning.
-"Still it's no guarantee of success."
If you want guarantees in life, then you dont want life. You want rehearsals for a script that's already been written. Life by its nature cannot have guarantees, or its whole purpose is thwarted.
"I love you, you know that?"
I know you do. And I love you.
Do not feel abandoned. I am always with you. If you have questions- day to day questions- as I know you do even now, and will continue to - know that you can call on Me to answer them. You do not need the form of this book.
This is not the only way I speak to you. Listen to Me in the truth of your soul. Listen to Me in the feelings of your heart. Listen to Me in the quiet of you mind.
Here Me, everywhere. Whenever you have a question, simply know that I have answered it already. Then open your eyes to your world. My response could be in an article already published. In the sermon already written and about to be delivered. In the movie now being made. In the song just yesterday composed. In the words about to be said by a loved one. In the heart of a new friend about to be made.
My truth is in the whisper of the wind, the babble of the brook, the crack of the thunder, the tap of the rain. It is the feel of the earth, the fragrance of the lily, the warmth of the sun, the pull of the moon.
My truth- and your surest help in time of need- is as awesome as the night sky, and as simply, incontrovertibly, trustful as a baby's gurgle.
It is as loud as a pounding heartbeat- and as quiet as a breath taken in unity with Me.
I will not leave you, I cannot leave you, for you are My creation and My product, My daughter and My son, My purpose and My...Self.
Call on Me, therefore, wherever and whenever you are separate from the peace that I am.
I will be there.
with Truth.
and Light.
and Love.
